Final straw

I seriously think its not funny when I came in all the way from JB only to get stood up by some guy. Its totally not funny.

I don't mean to sound pathetic but its frustrating to have someone cancel on you at the very last minute, and with a very stupid excuse too! Why would people even do such a thing? And to think you were one of those friends I am comfortable with. Tsk! Talk about wrong choice of friend, am i right?

So recently I made plans with this certain friend of mine to watch avengers. See, eversince moving to JB, my freedom to travel is kinda restricted. Like I have to go in Singapore either very early in the morning or later in the evening. So I woke up super early that day just to get ready and went Singapore with siblings. I reach Singapore at 7 and since I had so much time left, I went to my aunt's place for a short nap. Of course I did text him to ask what time we meet and stuff but since I got no reply (and i understand why coz its like 7 in the morning!), I took a short nap. Woke up at 12 and after exchanging a few texts, we agreed to meet at 2. My aunt's place is at Marsiling and we agreed to meet at Woodlands so I see no rush in getting ready la. About 1.40pm, he texted me, saying this....

"Meeza. I am so sorry. A girl i am going out with doesnt feel comfortable with me hanging out with you. I thought she'd be cool about it but she's not. I am so sorry."

I.BROKE.DOWN. Its not for the fact that I was so eager to go out with him but its because of the fact that I travelled all the way just to meet him and I was super excited to watch avengers. In the first place, why didn't he ask his girl if she's okay with it? Why must it be AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE? And in the first place, why would you even ask me out when you know you can watch it with the girl I JUST HEARD OF?

I was like fuck man. Its too much. I wasn't feeling well, I woke up so fucking early just to get stood up. And it wasn't the first time he stood me up. I was dumb enough to put myself through it again. So that was it. I told myself that was the last straw. I can't forgive him for it, no matter how hard I tried.

From that point onwards, I made a promise to myself that I WILL NO LONGER BE THE NICE GIRL EVERYONE KNEW. I am sick of being nice. I am always nice and thats why people think its okay to make plans with me and cancel at the very last minute, thinking "nah, its meeza, she'll forgive me." No more. I am not going to "okayla, forgiven. Buy me dinner!" or whatever crap I used to say/do coz seriously, its pissing the crap out of me. The next person who stood me up again at the very last minute, our friendship is over. Yes, call me bitchy or unreasonable but I have gone through enough to know it fucking hurts.

And to think I thought life was getting better........

"Final straw" posted at 08:38