Thoughts
I have grown accustomed to having a companion and when i don't have it, i feel lonely and.... sad? This is not weird, right?
I mean, i would really love to have a boyfriend right now. Minus all the dramas, fights, disagreements, jealousy or whatever, the fact that you know your boyfriend will always be there for you is comforting. The fact that you have someone to rely on should your friends bail on you or the fact that you can just hug someone and say "baby, thank you for being with me" is just so.....heartwarming.
When i was with amir, he was always there. When i met with the fire accident that burnt my right arm, i was pretty messed up but he was still by my side. Treating me like a freaking princess, giving in to my cravings and demands. When i was fighting with the girls from school, i cried on him. I told him how unfair it was for me to lose all 3 of them just because they're in the same class and they're always together. All he did was to comfort me, saying they're not worth it and just stroking my hair while i cry on his shoulders. When i sprained my ankle, he accompanied me to Sakura to give my MC and helped me limp home. The point is, he was always there.
Now that he's gone, i miss it. I miss having someone that i can talk to for hours, cry my lungs out with, hug and call mine. Oh well, my time will come i guess.
But how would i know if a guy likes me if he didn't express it, through words/actions? I really hope some guys will just man up and confess, instead of expecting us girls to figure them out. Sad to say, truth is, most guys now think girls are like a freaking mind reader. I really hope my future boyfriend will be old-fashioned, in terms of expressing feelings. Like through a card, or a text, or flowers.
I don't think i'm asking for alot. All i want in a boyfriend is honesty, loyalty, love and care. I want my boyfriend to be able to show he love me once in awhile. Maybe that is too much to ask? Oh i don't know. Really, i don't even know the do's and dont's of dating anymore! -.-
Whenever i think a guy likes me and i told them that i like them, it always dont turn out to be what i expected. Like i would expect happily ever after but no, i just misunderstood them. Its embarrassing, really. So, i really hope guys can just say it to your face instead of making me wonder, do you really like me? And whenever people start talking about how compatible i am with whoever or how much whoever likes me, i will start to think too much and it usually ends up breaking my heart.
Love is so confusing. Mannnnnnnn.
WHY ON EARTH AM I SO EMOTIONAL? LOL!
Yeap, its that time of the day again where you just ponder and reflect about your life. So pardon for this mushy post. ;)
Another sleepless night. Sighh. My eyes will get smaller due to my eyebags getting bigger due to the lack of sleep.
Love you all. Stay pretty and thank you for wasting your time reading my crap. <3 Xoxo.
I mean, i would really love to have a boyfriend right now. Minus all the dramas, fights, disagreements, jealousy or whatever, the fact that you know your boyfriend will always be there for you is comforting. The fact that you have someone to rely on should your friends bail on you or the fact that you can just hug someone and say "baby, thank you for being with me" is just so.....heartwarming.
When i was with amir, he was always there. When i met with the fire accident that burnt my right arm, i was pretty messed up but he was still by my side. Treating me like a freaking princess, giving in to my cravings and demands. When i was fighting with the girls from school, i cried on him. I told him how unfair it was for me to lose all 3 of them just because they're in the same class and they're always together. All he did was to comfort me, saying they're not worth it and just stroking my hair while i cry on his shoulders. When i sprained my ankle, he accompanied me to Sakura to give my MC and helped me limp home. The point is, he was always there.
Now that he's gone, i miss it. I miss having someone that i can talk to for hours, cry my lungs out with, hug and call mine. Oh well, my time will come i guess.
But how would i know if a guy likes me if he didn't express it, through words/actions? I really hope some guys will just man up and confess, instead of expecting us girls to figure them out. Sad to say, truth is, most guys now think girls are like a freaking mind reader. I really hope my future boyfriend will be old-fashioned, in terms of expressing feelings. Like through a card, or a text, or flowers.
I don't think i'm asking for alot. All i want in a boyfriend is honesty, loyalty, love and care. I want my boyfriend to be able to show he love me once in awhile. Maybe that is too much to ask? Oh i don't know. Really, i don't even know the do's and dont's of dating anymore! -.-
Whenever i think a guy likes me and i told them that i like them, it always dont turn out to be what i expected. Like i would expect happily ever after but no, i just misunderstood them. Its embarrassing, really. So, i really hope guys can just say it to your face instead of making me wonder, do you really like me? And whenever people start talking about how compatible i am with whoever or how much whoever likes me, i will start to think too much and it usually ends up breaking my heart.
Love is so confusing. Mannnnnnnn.
WHY ON EARTH AM I SO EMOTIONAL? LOL!
Yeap, its that time of the day again where you just ponder and reflect about your life. So pardon for this mushy post. ;)
Another sleepless night. Sighh. My eyes will get smaller due to my eyebags getting bigger due to the lack of sleep.
Love you all. Stay pretty and thank you for wasting your time reading my crap. <3 Xoxo.
"Thoughts" posted at 12:18