life as we know it
So my younger sis faced her first heartbreak last night and she was really crying. I've been there and done that man! But seeing my baby sister crying over a guy totally breaks my heart. Stay strong babygirl, everything will be just fine.
So last night, me and my sister went to put baby bro to sleep. While we were doing so, we were talking about how much life has changed since we move jb. Its not the same anymore, our family has drifted apart and our social life are at stake (not mine actually, i dont have much social life to talk about here!)
We sacrificed our life (very dramatic but seriously, we did) for our parents. We know this move will help them in many ways. But at the same time, we can't help but to feel like we deserve something in return for this huge sacrifice. Mom actually pictured us a happier life back then when enticing us to move jb. She said we will go out as family every weekend and do a lil shopping and we will own a car (a Malaysia car at least). But now, we don't go out every weekend, mom is always in a bad mood, we still don't have a car and we have to depend on our cousins next door for their family car. Initially we were fine with this because yknow, new house, new environment, it was pretty exciting. After some time, we realised that life sucks. We are always bored at home, there's hardly any food and when we ask to go shop, mom will get pissed. Wonder what went wrong?
I know mom regretted moving to jb. She was always against the idea of moving to jb since the start. But somehow, she managed to convince us and herself to move. Mom is always in a bad mood. I don't know why. She expects us to do ALOT of things and when things are done, she's just not satisfied. I think i understand how she must be feeling but i want her to know that we're feeling the exact same way! But its so hard to talk to her nowadays, she's just so grumpy.
Dear mom, i know you're not reading this (it will be freaky if you did) but i just want you to know that we love you. I love you. It is difficult and tiring for me to travel in and out of jb but i understand the need for this. I just hope that once i start working and everything is more stable, you'll give in to us about having a car. That is the only thing i want from this move. I hope our 2 years at jb wont be wasted, i hope you achieved what you've wanted and we can move back 2 years later.
But, i somehow feel i have adapted the whole travelling thingy. I can say that i am living like a malaysian now. :D I just can't wait for the 2 years to be over! I miss my house at woodlands.
I think the cause of my sis breakup was because they hardly spend time with each other eversince we move to jb. Its a pity la, that things turn out this way for her. I remembered my very major heartbreak. It was with my most recent ex boyfriend, amir. The breakup was horrible and 2 years have passed, i still miss him and sometimes, i have this sudden urge to just find out how he's doing and such. God, i hated him so much when we broke up because the reason he gave was stupid but now, i just hope and pray for him to be happy.
Im so over and done being in a relationship. FOR NOW. Im just too lazy to search for love right now. When the time comes, i'll be waiting. But for now, let it be just me, my friends and family. I don't mind dating though, it'll be fun to just mingle and have fun. ;) I think i have forgotten how to date la, like the do's and dont's. I'll just go with the flow i guess.
So last night, me and my sister went to put baby bro to sleep. While we were doing so, we were talking about how much life has changed since we move jb. Its not the same anymore, our family has drifted apart and our social life are at stake (not mine actually, i dont have much social life to talk about here!)
We sacrificed our life (very dramatic but seriously, we did) for our parents. We know this move will help them in many ways. But at the same time, we can't help but to feel like we deserve something in return for this huge sacrifice. Mom actually pictured us a happier life back then when enticing us to move jb. She said we will go out as family every weekend and do a lil shopping and we will own a car (a Malaysia car at least). But now, we don't go out every weekend, mom is always in a bad mood, we still don't have a car and we have to depend on our cousins next door for their family car. Initially we were fine with this because yknow, new house, new environment, it was pretty exciting. After some time, we realised that life sucks. We are always bored at home, there's hardly any food and when we ask to go shop, mom will get pissed. Wonder what went wrong?
I know mom regretted moving to jb. She was always against the idea of moving to jb since the start. But somehow, she managed to convince us and herself to move. Mom is always in a bad mood. I don't know why. She expects us to do ALOT of things and when things are done, she's just not satisfied. I think i understand how she must be feeling but i want her to know that we're feeling the exact same way! But its so hard to talk to her nowadays, she's just so grumpy.
Dear mom, i know you're not reading this (it will be freaky if you did) but i just want you to know that we love you. I love you. It is difficult and tiring for me to travel in and out of jb but i understand the need for this. I just hope that once i start working and everything is more stable, you'll give in to us about having a car. That is the only thing i want from this move. I hope our 2 years at jb wont be wasted, i hope you achieved what you've wanted and we can move back 2 years later.
But, i somehow feel i have adapted the whole travelling thingy. I can say that i am living like a malaysian now. :D I just can't wait for the 2 years to be over! I miss my house at woodlands.
I think the cause of my sis breakup was because they hardly spend time with each other eversince we move to jb. Its a pity la, that things turn out this way for her. I remembered my very major heartbreak. It was with my most recent ex boyfriend, amir. The breakup was horrible and 2 years have passed, i still miss him and sometimes, i have this sudden urge to just find out how he's doing and such. God, i hated him so much when we broke up because the reason he gave was stupid but now, i just hope and pray for him to be happy.
Im so over and done being in a relationship. FOR NOW. Im just too lazy to search for love right now. When the time comes, i'll be waiting. But for now, let it be just me, my friends and family. I don't mind dating though, it'll be fun to just mingle and have fun. ;) I think i have forgotten how to date la, like the do's and dont's. I'll just go with the flow i guess.
"life as we know it" posted at 17:34